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I Repent


I cannot and will not recant anything, for to go against conscience is neither right nor safe.

Here I stand, I can do no other. God help me.

Amen.

Martin Luther. Germany. 1521


 

A Psalm.

 

I repent of my bigotry, which is not just “out there” but has lived in my heart.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of my hate for any human being who is an image-bearer of the God I claim to worship.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of my silence, which has allowed evil to wreak havoc around me, and for believing that it absolved me of responsibility.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of my fear—so much fear—that held me back from speaking out and taking a stand when I knew that I should.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of focusing on my ‘personal relationship with Jesus’ at the expense of and as justification for my non-action.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of violence in all its forms. Violence is antichrist, it has no place in my thoughts, actions, or words.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of speaking but not acting. That makes me a fraud. Words are empty without action. Jesus and his brother even said so.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of being self-absorbed, and not absorbing in my body and soul with empathy the pain and struggle of others.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of the sin of omission and for not seeing it as a horrible violation of my duty as an ambassador of Christ.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of allowing my privilege to blind me.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of my ignorance to the problems and issues of others, and ever making it “somebody else’s problem.”

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of preaching the “good news” through a white, male, heterosexual megaphone. I realize much of that news is not actually good.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of white/male messiah complex. I am not Jesus. I can save literally no one.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of preaching “forgiveness of sins” without calling for justice, mercy, and freedom for all people and nations. That’s not the gospel.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of misrepresenting Jesus in my cowardice and apathy in the face of evil; for ever sweeping something under a rug.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of idolatry, for letting anything other than Jesus be the ruler of my thoughts, emotions, and actions.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of keeping people at arm’s length for fear of association with their side or their sin. Jesus would do better.

May God have mercy on me.

I repent of judging anyone for sins that were nailed to the cross 2,000 years ago.

May God have mercy on me.

For all this, I am sorry. I mourn, I grieve, and I confess my sin.

But that’s not what I mean.

 

I have turned.

 

I am changed. A new creation. Different today than I was yesterday.

 

No more silence.

No more fear.

No more half-gospel preaching.

No more quiet obedience to being a good Christian and doing all the right things while my brothers and sisters suffer.

 

I am responsible. It is my problem.

We are all God’s Creation. We are the body of Christ. We are in this together. I am with you.

From this day forward, by the grace of God and with the help of my brothers and sisters, I will walk a new path.

 

This is my line in the sand. I can do no other.

May God have mercy on me.